終生也堅持

回港整整五年了！
剛從加國回來的時候，十萬樣不適應，還怨自己怎麼要回到這地！

5 years have passed and I'm in my 5th jobs since I came back.
Now that 怨氣都消散了! 就是當初肯堅持，all of those became a chance of 數算上帝的恩. me - becomin' a stronger one. 努力ar! 終生也堅持，深信在背後盛載主心意是祂旨意! Ready for 2009!!

Without any of you along the way. I might have lost long ago.
"I thank my God upon every remembrance of you" (Philippians 1:3)

不是八十年代

每年婆婆的生日party，都會在走廊的歌舞聲中渡過，今年亦不例外。
婆婆和媽媽一同到舞池大展身手吧！婆婆 d friend 也全是舞林高手呢～@_@

在六、七十年代的音樂下，我和表弟妹都變啞了，不能唱也不懂跳，唯有用自拍來自娛一番！^^
Anyways, 這些走廊 live band 感覺真的非常 professional. 轉歌、轉Key、轉style都絕不手軟永無躂Q！佩服！

可惜不是你

不是不想好好的愛它，是"timing"的問題吧！
早知道它不屬於我，結果還是愛上了！可惜不是它陪我到最後, 唯有忍痛說再見！
河畔... 請你保重！I'll miss you.

over evil

他說: 「泰來個爸爸原來係麥長青，麥飽ar~ 哈哈！」
我回應 (with monotone): 「咩呀？泰來？! 你個friend呀？」

Then I turn around and saw a "足球小將12" in his hands. -___-""

他的善良及單純，總叫人不忍心傷害他。He won, again!

怎麼又失眠... 我的天 你可不可以暫時讓我睡~

*merry christmas*

Thanks for inviting me to this 多元化 & 多姿多采's Christmas celebration.^^.

So glad & warm to be here with u crazy loVers!! Keep it up, you guys are super!! 羨慕你們一同成長累積起的默契。難能可貴! It's good to have companions on the long long journey.

Yes! Jesus is the gift of Christmas. He was born to die... for you and me.

"We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
(all that he could give all)
To show us the reason to live "

《We are the reason— Avalon》

We Are The Reason

We are the reason— Avalon
As little children we would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love All because of love
We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

I finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him(every part to him)
And all that I do every word that i say(you know I’ll be saying)
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, For Him (everything for Him)

silent night

Christmas party at acm office with all staffs this afternoon.

Celebrated for all the ups & downs we underwent together!! 2008, 點滴在心頭~ Everything is in HIS hands!!! Looking forward for the new challenges in 2009.

Have a very silent's silent night*

Silent night, Holy night. All is clam, All is bright...

Rejoice.

爸爸走了，陳生回來了！
他倆似換更一樣～

Finally met the 大夫 introduced by 米高媽。把口&把脈都利害，if those 藥都利害就好喇！*v*

走上街，才感受到濃濃的節日氣氛。
Let us rejoice!!

Done!

2008年所有outreach都成了！

This morning 是最後一場＠中學，亦是有史以來最近我家的一場～(walking distance)

衷心感謝我的好同工們!! 在這段時間，他們真的為我分擔了許多工作呢～(of course 還有義工們的協助) 能和他們一起同工真好！每一次也可能是最後一次嘛~ 珍惜！

今天收到許多老師的鼓勵&祝福，感動=^^= 我也希望將來有機會分享 the other side of my story. 2008外展收爐喇，2009會繼續努力！得人如得fish! YEAH~

冬

冬至夜，跟爸爸二人在樓下共進晚餐。

無論是單獨跟爸爸 or 單獨跟媽媽吃飯，總是有總尷尷尬尬的感覺，不知如何是好。


我是什麼構造的？

JESUS is the gift

I love Christmas. Jesus is the gift.

這個月以 Christmas 為主題的外展出隊有5個. Other than 中、小學及教會出隊, 還有今天這個小學生家長福音預工。A hall full of 家長!! 感覺好特別~

今天除了感恩, I really have nothing to say. From the moment I received the card last night, I strongly believe that Jesus is walking me through and He wants me to walk through it with HIM. 說真的... 今天對我來說, 真是個很大很大的考驗... the toughest battle ever。

因為有親密戰友一起打這場仗，因為祂 never give up a soul，we did it!! 最終勝利者always is 上帝!! Yeah~

Enjoy everything, every moment that we've shared. High quality combination mah!! wooho~
Never too much for gospel events.
(i'm sleepy... but i gotta type it down before another day comes^^)

Feelings

陳生昨天已出發到湖南短宣去了! 這一連六天﹐我要學習和爸爸單獨相處。廿幾年來第一次，真的有點緊張。陳生也要加油呀！他首次用國語講道，希望上帝 uses you and open the people's ears，明白祂的道^^

第二次回去威爾斯覆診﹐都係個句 ﹕「等耐過乜」幸有好友相伴﹐可以聊天解悶~ 還一起填那份奇怪的問卷﹐我們都學多了用來形容「感覺」的詞語﹕
正常的有﹕忿怒﹑寂寞﹑生氣﹑被騙﹑活躍﹑焦躁...
特別的有﹕有幫助﹑受人信任﹑平易近人﹑有效率﹑有同情心...
未知胡亂作答會否影響醫院的research呢﹖實在唔知自己有無平易近人。


昨晚為週六練習得如火如荼﹐好耐無試過練一次的出隊練 over 2 hrs. ~ I'm really looking forward for 我們這combination首次之合作﹐相信一定能擦出新的火花~*

太棒了!

Praise the Lord! Mission Cleared!

My失憶+失魂症 nearly ruin 今早的外展ar~ 感謝各緊急救亡小組的支援!!兩場聚會得"順利"完成!

不得不提今天的兩位好拍檔﹐有了你們﹐我的壓力全退。好拍檔難求呀~你們太棒了! 上帝更棒!! 全男班出隊屬罕見﹐我今朝能夠去到粉嶺是神恩~(像無盡碧海...)

Highlights of the day:
All faxed scores ...
Opera version「還」...
Encore with F.7 ...
孤獨小子的小肚腩 ...
踏鋼線爸爸 ...
上帝無條件的愛 ...

"別害怕 祂知你難受 擔當軟弱與困憂..." 感動到傻~

不再是我能夠為祂做甚麼﹐祂給我的實在太多太多太多太多太多!

壞電視!

長開的電視機﹐叫人甚麼也想不出來。

是誰把電視長開﹖!

絕

星期五下班回家後感不適﹐半夜還發起熱來~ 十萬個不願再到emergency求診下(i'll be more sick)﹐結果等待到天亮! 發熱情況似乎稍微退下﹐決定到中醫那邊把把脈。。。

Too bad 吃過中藥還未見好轉﹐整天呆呆滯滯反反覆覆﹐最後還是到馬鞍山找西醫夜診去~ 經過中西藥的交流﹐現在方有力上網打字。(ya! i need to blog... ha!) 我要絕地反擊!! I'll be strong! 我星期一要出隊!!!
還不夠絕﹖尚可更絕﹖

再謝愛心小姐送來的食物﹐可惜最後還是由陳生代勞了~

一切很美

出山的第一天，連天氣也特別美！

走進8A辦工室，發現工作桌像變了醫院病床，全是可愛同工＆義工戰友無聲的支持，令我今天工作特別有力！衷心感激！

這晚high school老友又聚頭～ 多得A. Fung夫婦每3個月一假期回港，造就了我們group埋敘一敘的機會呢！對於繁忙的Honger來說，3個月update一次的確不算久^^三月再見喇老友!

This day, with Ming 姐姐親自送來兒童天地小孩 & 導師們的祝福!
I'm totally speechless... 主賜福如春雨~

一切很美只因有祢～

Meet Again

3 movies in a row already~ wooho!!

Tks Wujo for the noon visit. 不好意思﹐沒有盡地主之誼﹐還要妳前來探訪~ I'm always happy to meet old friends.(oh...my super 殘face! 用咩effect都執唔到~)

因為我倆現都在機構事奉(她在楓葉國)﹐不用多詳述也明白大家的situation﹐能有共鳴多好~ And I think we both are tough daughters in Christ!^^ Yes, don't worry. I'm alright!! 可惜相聚的時間總是太短! I hope she enjoy her stay in Hong Kong! 請好好保重!

After Wujo's visit, I started to miss my buddies in Canada again. When will I see you again?!

爸來了!

是有想過剛發生的事情﹐會影響爸爸 fly back to H.K. 的計劃。
結果﹐他還是來了~ Arrival time: 1930

During the "critical moment", 爸爸特來照顧實在是窩心呢~ 梳化床又發揮它的功用了! But it's kinda weird that he's the 2nd person who uses this sofa bed after Mom. I know I've been thinking too much!^^

Hopefully 短短的幾個星期﹐在這小屋子裡(our home is smaller than his bedroom in Vancouver)﹐陳生和他外父 can build a closer bonding. 其實我擔心自己多一點... i need a lot of space^^" Welcome home Dad!!

流浪寵物

今天感覺有點像流浪貓﹐在等好心人來喂~

好心小姐送上兩餐愛心食物之如﹐還待我家主人回來才離開。在家應該是寵物﹐也不算流浪吧! 謝謝寵愛~

精神食糧也到了﹐不用背tvb program啦!^^

"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will not be shaken." (Ps. 62:5-6)

和Chicken做朋友

一連五天沒有走出過門口﹐人生的第一次。

足不出戶還未算呆﹐每餐吃不同 appearance, 但一樣 texture 的雞才是 dull。現在除了雞﹐還有痱茲和豆豆跟我做朋友﹐加上 insomnia 晚上來探訪﹐熱鬧到呢!

今晚終於有點新口味﹐有馮生馮太帶來的驚喜~ 馮太還代替今天復工的陳生 take care of me^^真係辛苦晒!

快跑

emotion 終於跑出來了.........................

"可不可以不勇敢?!"

ans.: no

Peaceful God

婦產科游醫生於11月18日證實了小生命在我身體內的存在﹐她還首次把只有7星期大的胚胎拍下! (1.2cm long)

隨後的日子﹐我們開始盡量小心翼翼。

11月30日﹐陳生行畢業禮的大日子!

浸信會神學院 - 這地方是我倆行婚禮的地方﹐如今又是陳生行畢業禮的地方﹐都見證著兩個非常重要的階段﹐沒想到還有第3個重要經歷在這裡發生。

In the middle of the ceremony, I felt sick.

結果畢業禮還未結束﹐我還未有機會和陳生打個招呼﹑拍張合照﹐已被送到威院急症室去。

當急症室醫生說﹕「胚胎心跳停頓了!」的一刻﹐我的心跳仿彿也停了...

現在回想在7E病房渡過的日子﹐仿如造夢! 那3天3夜﹐有了多方好友的支持和代禱﹐令我沒有一刻感覺孤單。I saw YOU from the love of these people. 經歷了上帝豐富的恩典。

在陳生畢業的日子miscarriage的確好特別﹐他說我們像把以撒獻了給神為祭。無論如何﹐仍然堅信上帝會為我們預備最好!!

And like what keeley婆婆 says, 祂今天給我們的經歷﹐將來要成為別人的祝福! 我都相信係架!! So glad to be home. I need some rest.

一生縱多艱辛 主拖帶我渡過絕處 仍然未放手 將我心都安穩於手裡。。。

從來沒平安能像主所賜 能在我心深處 像那江水滿溢全沒竭止。。。

(i've been humming this song in my head, before I was pushed into the operation room)

beloved.

就是狠狠地被愛護著﹐才能實實地撐得住!

看見天漸漸亮起來﹐新的一天要來臨了!
we're beloved.

窩心貼士

一覺醒來連接兩個電話﹐楓葉國好導師!

她倆真的很體貼﹐雖然我們都常分隔兩地﹐但經過那兩段對話﹐距離也拉近了~ 特別是Keeley婆婆的小貼士﹐always 詳盡, always 細心。實在很窩心!^^(the picture was taken at Coquitlam 生活小品) Miss you very much ne~~~ Omi & Noah 真幸福!

爸爸也開了facebook account?! 都唔知好唔好accept his request...haha~

冬暖

今天我們去到En同工在葵涌的母校出隊，她當然顯得特別興奮。

經過兩場的佈道會的分享，加上跟一班活躍非常的學生搏鬥完﹐身體累透了～然而﹐離開的時候，有同學經過為我打氣^^感覺真的很溫暖~

晚上有歌手及詩班BBQ gathering，謝謝屋主借出大屋!! We can 同步過冬~

各位lovely同路人! 繼續努力together!! Yeah!

打造的人

今個星期日(11月30日)，陳生要行畢業禮喇！
有關他畢業的感想及分享，可 click 入→　http://ivan-his-servant.blogspot.com/2008/11/blog-post.html　

若不是陳生的畢業禮臨近，都沒有想過，原來3年的時間已經過去了～ 過去3年，你完成了些什麼？！少時浪費的時間太多，今天若不再好好提醒自己，就完旦了！

突然想起一位舊舊舊同事Ah-Fe。她曾經問我的一條問題：「為何上帝對你那麼好？你常常都可以感恩！對我一點也不好，要我遇到那麼多困難！」我說：「上帝對我們都好，好在祂會給我們一個又一個的難關，讓我們經過磨鍊後，變得更強！就是因為靠著祂，我能夠跨過每一個困難，才會時時感恩～」

According to 她當時的樣子，似乎不明白我在說什麼．．．Sorry! 我從來不是a caring type of person~真替我的下一代擔心！Anyways, 看過陳生寫的分享，再次 remind me 要成長必須付出，並經過磨鍊，run away or 呆坐在一旁會有得著嗎？！

萬能哥哥

新居的裝修工程快要展開，在忙碌的十二月裝修及搬家，的確在挑戰我家二人的能力 (其實我什麼也幫不上忙)。不過，哥哥一出手，我倆實無憂！('lit'嘴...)

哥哥實在太利害，有時我也懷疑他其實是用"Sales"的身份，去掩飾他真正的身份～Anyways, 這次他又化身成 designer & constructor. 今天的黃昏時分，我們更一行三人走到"極大的盒子"入面一間專賣裝修材料的店子選材。感覺仿如從前跟爸爸到"The Home Depot"買木一樣，只是現在我不用幫手搬又不用幫手油了～當年許多個 summer 的零用錢，也在那裏賺回來的呢！

好期代見到哥哥的傑作！十萬分感激！！

My Name is...

身邊的朋友介紹自己的名字時﹐多會講解一下名字的意思﹐例如﹕振振有辭的振﹔賢良淑德的賢 (for example only)

而我﹐實在很少介紹自己的中文名字。在楓葉國的時候﹐teacher always ask us to introduce ourselves. "Hi, My name is Daisy." 然後老師便會說, "Hi Stacy! Nice to see you here." 10次有9次都會被誤會我叫Stacy. 都怪 'is' 在 'd' 前面累事!!

有想過索性改掉名字叫Stacy便一了百了! 但為了被叫錯而改名﹐仿彿又有點無聊! 更不明白爸爸為何要把"daisy" 寫在出世紙﹐不讓我自己去改一個更好的! 80年代電視劇入面的"Daisy"多是壞女人角色﹐而且太多auntie級叫Daisy﹐所以從少都不喜歡自己的名字。原來不懂得喜歡自己名字的人﹐連自己也不太會喜歡!

後來一路成長﹐發現不能再不喜歡自己﹐所以決定找出"daisy"(這名字)可愛的地方。

終於我發現daisy = 雛菊﹔野花一種﹐在加國更滿地都是! 雖然好common, 又不矜貴﹐但無論環境多惡劣﹐它都仍能茁壯成長! 心想﹐我也希望有這些"daisies"的特質﹐不屈不朽!

Daisy ... stronger than you think^^

老表

Click下click下，去到心表妹的 msn space，才發現她已到澳州去了近一個月！

9位表妹之中，心表妹也是甚少見面（"零"聯絡）的表妹其中之一位～ 是在新年或節慶，可能會踫面那種。其實這類型的表弟妹有十多個，由細玩到大的倒一個也沒有。是經常搬遷帶來的後果？還是... 上一代原本就不是好"friend"，下一代也不會好close 的原因呢～ 不管如何，也真希望我和弟弟的下一代會有所突破！

Physically的距離，實在不該成為親人疏離的成因。今天剛收到加國小表妹的一個message，看罷也甜在心頭～ That's what little Beata says on msn,
"Lisa(another little cousin) misses you a lot, if she sees a pic of you, she gets so sad and sometimes she will cry! I miss you too!"
Beata & Lisa, 兩位小女孩 sure brighten up my day. 雖然沒有一起成長、也不能常常見面、中間還隔了一個太平洋，但她們總帶著加拿大人的味道～

In His...

這星期病到傻，鼻子似乎已失去它原有的功用！
除了睡，便是水～　該再沒有比「睡」和「水」，再好的良藥了！

昨天開始恢復正常工作，一連串的變數，為我和各同工都增添一點煩惱~ =P
Anyways, everything 也是 in HIS perfect time, in HIS wonderful hands.
也謝過Lee&Lam過去週日的visit. 感激我們的遇見也在那裏～下次再來喇！

站起來

不能走動的時候﹐你會做甚麼﹖原來你甚麼都不能做。。。

自己和自己相處的時間多了(太多)﹐溝通或許會好一點吧! 還真要勸誡自己一下﹐不是逞強的時候﹐要好好作息﹐才能再戰江湖! Be strong!!

呆了一整天﹐還是忍不住要走上來打打字才安樂~
我怕不能和外界接觸的時候﹐人會變瘋了! 我要站起來... 先要懂得坐/睡下來吧~

Hey Mom, wishing u a happy birthday today! 阿媽﹐辛苦晒!

心永屬你

這晚和聚義工&同工到大角咀去出隊 - 「培靈會」

因為不常負責打power point﹐每每坐在這位上都比在台上更緊張﹐今晚也是如此^^" 唯一不同的是﹐緊張中竟然也能投入敬拜中!! Esp. when we sing this song:

求主用我
作曲：凌乃基 作詞：趙孟準
求用我口 來為你歌 求用我足 跟主腳蹤
求用我手 勤力作工 唯願我將 一切奉獻
耶穌一生引牽 求賜 生活能力
如今 不再是我 願我 心永屬你

I still remember, 這就是我信主後第一次返崇拜所唱的"月詩"。(I don't think they have 月詩 now) I was moved when I 1st listen to it. 當年﹐心一直在想。。。要用這首詩歌成為我的禱告﹐我的立志。如今﹐也是一樣! Nothing can separate me from serving You.

遊牧

"Winter is coming (wonder if it's the case for HK though??)" BBG wrote.
話你知﹐香港終於冷起來! 今天16-23度喇!! 又到了鼻塞塞﹐手凍凍的季節﹐真的要 stay warm & stay healthy 至得。

話轉就轉的豈只天氣﹐居住的地方也是如此。其實早早知道不能長住河畔﹐不過未料到不足半年就要move out。還破了我"最短逗留"及"最密搬遷"紀錄!! Within these 5 years in HK, this is already the 4th times of moving. 似成了city遊牧民族。

其實遊牧民族為何會喜歡不定的居所呢﹖難道停頓會令他們失去人生目標﹖究竟他們是適應力太強﹐好快適應了一個地方然後覺得悶要搬﹖還是適應力太弱﹐搬來搬去都未能適應下來呢﹖自問適應力不差﹐已經 enjoy living in Shatin. 不怕悶﹐亦無搬遷的習慣﹐但總是不能停下來。呢件事﹐係奇個woh!!

都是好的

A busy weekend is overed~

"教會十週年" - 由十年前的100多人﹐到今日的1100多人﹐上帝都看顧著宣基! 感恩的聯合崇拜!

"馬拉松戀愛" - 結束10多年的愛情長跑﹐跑入婚姻大道﹐漫漫長路﹐願你倆攜手結伴到老!

"慶生辰" - 友您們相伴多好!

Growth

"... As you grow, you learn more.
If you stayed at twenty-two, you'd always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth.
It's more than the negative that you're going to die, its' also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it." - Tuesdays with Morrie

Thank God I'm growing old!! And happy birthday, my dear brother~

it's comin'

第一次non-church見證婚盟﹐除了感到新鮮外﹐感覺有點兒戲...^^"




在此祝福舅父舅母婚姻美滿!!

簽過婚書﹐我們便起行到深圳探望小表弟! 懷中抱著小生命﹐再次感到生命實在好奇妙﹐才16天大﹐要走的路真的好漫長﹐希望他能夠生性&茁壯成長~ 表妹都成年了!









即晚來回中港兩地的確好疲累~
坐在火車上經過粉嶺站﹐想起上一次粉神出隊﹔經過大埔墟站﹐又想起笠花人﹔經過大學站﹐還想起回神學院宿舍的路。。。突然想知道﹐我個腦載的究竟是甚麼﹖! -_-"

又返回家中了~ 向前看吧!! The best is yet to come.

Saikung

Sai Kung... i so want to live here. Tks for bringing me back~

Power of Your Love

Lord I come to You, let my heart be changed renewed
Flowing from the grace that I've found in You.
Lord I've come to know the weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away by the power of Your love.

Hold me close, let Your love surround me.
Bring me near, draw me to Your side.
And as I wait, I'll rise up like the eagle,
And I will soar with You, Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love.

Lord unveil my eyes let me see You face to face:
The knowledge of Your love as You live in me.
Lord renew my mind as Your will unfolds my life
In living everyday by the power of Your love.

優先影

媽媽生日快樂(農曆)! 婆婆唔講都唔知阿媽今日農曆生日，陳生亦趁機帶埋剛剛借回家的畢業袍，跟外母拍個夠～ 畢業禮在即，來個優先試影！今天也順利完成早午堂兒崇的信息，謝謝師母＆堂委先生的鼓勵！上帝真的很愛小孩呢～乖／曳都咁愛架！That's why we have to offer HIM our best.

奇

Not only 老師 was surprised, I couldn't figure out why I mixed up.

In the past 2 years (almost), 沒有1次遲到 record 的我﹐今天竟因記錯上課的時間而 late for 30mins. 老師以為自己記錯﹐都沒有懷疑我搞錯~ How can it happened?! End up, we just had some chit chat n coffee for 30mins. 雖然老師說不緊要﹐but I still think this is awkward.

Eventually, I gotta sit down quietly and prepare for tomorrow.
每一次都是這樣﹐要跟同學講的﹐上帝總是先對我說話﹐要我先 learn the lesson.

都11月了﹐最高氣溫還有29度~

向中學出發

又出發喇! 一行六人同行到屯門. Target: 中學students!

這學校由校長到老師﹐老師到工友﹐全都彬彬有禮﹐客氣非常! 連午飯都安排我們和全校的宗教科老師一起共進! 老師還warn我們這band 3 校的學生較曳﹐我也有心理準備會好嘈&難專心等~

However, 兩場佈道會﹐不論高中/初中生都比想像中認真﹐聽見證和講道時也非常留心。第二場粗略統計有around 50人決志~ Can you see God's power?!!! Amazing!

第二次跟陳生拍檔出中學隊﹐加埋E. Ho﹐感覺好一家人(Mom, Dad & Son)... 哈!