不可怕的曱甴

一般來說﹐我不怕曱甴。

但當我知道有曱甴在我家躲藏起來時﹐又會產生一些恐懼的感覺... I know it's there somewhere, but I have no clue 牠何時會在何處跑出來。最後發現﹐「可怕」實在不是「曱甴」﹐只是那「未知數」。

將「未知數」克服後﹐可憐﹑細小﹑骯髒的曱甴跟本就不可怕! 要怕的該是牠﹐控制局面的是我! 怕/不怕你由我揀呀!!哈!

(It's just a concept, 我屋企無曱甴架!^^)

Wish me Well

I WISH YOU WELL by MARIAH CAREY:

(click here or the audio file on the right)

out to you and you and you You know who you are

Hmm hmm hmm
When glory days turn to stormy nights
You must have been so petrified
Didn't you, didn't you feel so cold
You against the world in a losing fight
Captive of your demons inside

So you sought an enemy
(I'm not your enemy. He lives in you, you know it's true)
Like times before to mock ignorantly
(But the Lord said love, love your enemy so just...)
Take heed to the Word it's time
Check Proverbs 19:29
Don't cry

I Wish You Well I wish you well I wish you well

I truly wanted solidarity
Still wearing my blinders back then
(So much I didn't see)
I weep for what I dreamed we all could be
I'll keep you in prayer till the end

Still bruised, still walk on eggshells
Same frightened child, hide to protect myself
(Can't believe I still need to protect myself from you)
But you can't manipulate me like before
Examine first John chapter 4 verse 4

And I wish you well I wish you well I wish you well
Be strong in the Lord and power of His might
If my shows of gratitude are miniscule
Inside your mind, sorry
(I'm so sorry, please forgive me)
There's only so much I can do

I love you and did all that I could

Maybe when you're cursing me
You don't feel so incomplete
But we've all made mistakes
Felt the guilt and self-hate

I know you've been there for me plenty
Maybe still got love for me
But let him without sin cast the first stone brethren
But who remains standing then
Not you not I see Phillipians 4:9
(Put it into practice and the God of Peace will be with you)

So I wish you well I wish you well I wish you well

(He who the Son sets free is free indeed)
No weapon formed against me shall prosper
Surely God is my salvation
I will trust and not be afraid
The Lord, the Lord is my salvation
I will trust in Him
Yes, I know that I know that I know that I know

But I have had God's help to this very day
And so I stand here and testify
To small and great alike
So the more you curse me
The more you're blessing me
The Word said it
Love your enemies

Do good to those who curse you
Pray for those who mistreat you
Psalms 129:2
They have greatly oppressed me from my youth
But they have not gained victory over me
(In Jesus' name)

I wish you well

He that keeps his mind state on the Lord
He will keep them in perfect peace

可以不受人影響下生存的，大概不是人，是神吧！I'm only human.

I wish you well, wish me well. Amen.

Purpose of being me

整天頭痛肩梗﹐是感冒的先兆吧! 也是天氣轉變所致﹐又回到開風扇睡覺的日子。

日復日、年復年﹐「季節」從來都不覺倦、不怕悶﹐每年按時重複著它的指定動作。我們也跟着它...重複著。有人喜歡平淡安穩﹐即使重複亦覺有趣﹔有的喜愛探索多變﹐要在重複中尋找突破。

每個人對生活的態度/生命的意義都有差別。I believe we all have purpose of being here or there, in a particular time, doing specific thing. 雖然心裡面也會存著一些問號...

又或者「生命的意義」根本不是用來 explain, 而是用來 experience.

明明已經關好燈蓋好被﹐甚麼又爬起來restart電腦 blogging?! Crazy!

My Bucket List ...

偶然看到別人的 bucket list，發現自己從沒想過可以這樣發夢。就讓我現在想一想，提醒自己不要忘記可以夢想狂想妄想!!!!!!!!

如果我的人生還有60年，希望有機會......

1. 完成輔導課程
2. 考電單車牌
3. 學一種樂器
4. 做一次大型音樂劇
5. 玩一次 sky diving
6. 徒手游水出浮台
7. 帶埋婆婆去溫哥華玩
8. 生一個仔同埋一個女
9. 每年一家人去一次旅行
10. 住o係一間向住個海既大屋
11. 環遊世界
12. 出一本散文+攝影集
13. 同陳生慶祝60週年
14. 同阿爸阿媽細佬影張全家福
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to be continued~

寵物情緣

週六意外地走到東涌友人家(第一次坐E bus不是到機場去)﹐除了友人﹐這家還住了兩只小貓(小虎+小儀)﹐一家三口樂也融融! It's proudly covered by kitten hair too.

作客的我單單逗留片刻﹐呼吸道已塞滿小虎及小儀的毛毛。So Sorry! I didn't want to steal你倆的毛毛回家~ 為何友人可以每晚與貓同眠而不窒息呢﹖匪夷所思!

我估我和 hairy animal 沒有太多緣份吧!! 今天我的鼻還在塞~:8)

Song of the day:

Miss Sweetie - David Tao 69

樂淘園

That was the most unique and touching wedding banquet I've ever attend!!

Wedding highlights of Fiona & Otto:
~ wedding pics in 屋企's garage
~ the sets, props ... all handmade (by 新郎)
~ 新郎 = 攝影師 of all indoor n outdoor 婚紗照s~ so cool~
~ the daily life videos were sweeeeeeeet!!!
~ the invitation cards, decorations, etc... all designs and made by 新郎
Highlights of the Banquet:
The speeches:
1. Otto's 爸爸情深的一句, "I'm proud to have a son like Otto." They hugged!
2. Otto's 姑媽長而不"枕"溫情感人地演繹Otto的童年趣事
3. Otto 貌似吳孟達的三叔搞笑又有人情味,仲扮"三叔"!
4. Otto & Fiona ... 鄧樂淘 + 周園 ... 11 yrs 愛情長跑... speechless~
etc. etc. etc. (太多﹐不能盡錄) 溫馨程度令我有如至身"真情"劇中！

I guess 呢個係令我最多眼濕濕位的婚宴。So glad to be 1 of your guests sharing your memorable journey. I love you guys very very very very very much!! ^^

Empty

The 4th Friday nights of each month at the office are ...
Empty.

Getting tired of waiting... O.o

重建工程

緊貼我們的隔壁鄰居(一閘兩戶)﹐已經遷走了一段日子。幾天前﹐終於有新業主來到，並開始進行翻新工程。

與其說翻新﹐倒不如說改頭換面好了。這幾天，一班外籍工人將隔璧的地臺全起﹐內牆全砍﹐每天風煙四起﹐塵土飛揚~ (唔知係咪咁用﹖！...) 我家梳化背後的牆跟隔壁緊緊相連﹐加上這種舊樓牆壁薄如紙﹐工人鑽牆時彷如在鑽我的頭。有時還會擔心工人用力過度﹐不慎穿牆過來。（這段日子，最好不要穿睡衣）

今天上午 off 嘗試在家多睡一點才上班，可惜．．．還是敵不過電鑽和斧頭～ 重建實在需要付上代價（even周邊的人），犧性我的睡眠（為他們出一分"眠"力）， 希望新鄰居可以盡快擁有華麗又美滿的新居，一切都變成新的～

SEE

「風雨中聽到主對我說 父永沒離開恩惠無欠缺
時常在聽低泣禱告 抱起我當我跌倒」- "See" - not yet publish.

Thank God for using me even 我成日都好論盡。
Thank God for 讓我知道我有限制. But in Him, everything is possible.
Thank God for giving me accountable teammates 並可以互相效力!

好牧人

「每個朝代都可以有不同 style 的領袖﹔摩西、阿倫、約書亞等等都有著不一樣的 style﹔重要的不是 "style" ﹐而是他必須要是一個"領袖"」智者的話

下午跟陳生走到荃灣探望好牧人﹐歇息中的他份外活潑﹐多懷念他在台上的風采和爛 gag! 能夠跟智者對話獲益良多﹐有「火」的牧者真是令人敬佩! 簡單一個「放假」的課題﹐也教人知道甚麼叫「委身」的事奉。有屬於自己的假期﹐等於要放(攞)盡嗎﹖! 真的很喜歡跟牧者/老師對話﹐在他們身上總會學到書本裡未必學到的學問﹐窮一生也未必累積到的人生哲理。

好好愛惜我們的牧者、我們的好牧人! 祝你們健康!

『沒有公德，更嚴的法律規條還是於是無補。
沒有心靈，任何搞作都只是搞作。』Quote of Dr. Sun

探險樂園

I really admire 老友 Leyond 的勇氣~ Not only "taking his time for some serious mind searching", also taking his time for some serious action!

He's actually there... solo trip to India - Delhi. (Backpacking??!!) India, 我可以聯想到有關這個地方的就只有《一百萬零一夜》or maybe《The Kite Runner》. It doesn't really exist in my little world.

I can't wait to see what will happen to Leyond at this mysterious place. 羨慕呢~

經過 weekend 兩大飲宴後﹐今天真的"滯"了!

Good to have a day off on Monday tho~~

Game. Escape.

從前 (many years ago...)常常看到弟弟和森美由晚到朝、由朝到晚、不眠不休通宵打機﹐怎也不明白打機的吸引力何在。

最近在 ipod nano 中﹐發現了一個有趣 but a bit 無聊的 mini game. 它令從少沒有打機習慣的我﹐愛上打機。

發現一﹕打機不能讓人放鬆 (it urges me to 升呢 all the time. "Play again?" YES!)
發現二﹕打機讓人逃避現實 ...

原來打機的過程﹐真的想不到甚麼~ 好像去到另一個空間似的﹐是個 super 強的逃避現實方法! 現在明白打機吸引人的地方~

發現三﹕除非你/我永遠不回來現實世界﹐否則還是停止沉醉打機/逃避好了!

天水圍‧成!

闊別天水圍有一段日子﹐近幾個月也沒有接到這區的外展出隊﹐直到今天。

外間常說天水圍是個悲情城市﹐不幸的事情總是在這裡發生。自己對有「悲情城市」的天水圍﹐沒有太多悲情的感覺﹐難道有一個城市會沒有悲劇發生嗎?!

"冏冏"有神 - 這個主題 "潮" + "中"! 這教會的年青人真好心思! ("好心思"該不夠"潮") 困苦中有上帝同行的確是好消息!

可喜可樂

午飯後﹐由馬拉松式會議展開下午的工作 - "4小時" 轉瞬即逝﹔立即接上的有週末出隊的練習 - 匆匆忙忙的 "1小時" ﹔緊隨其後的還有 Band B 練習... 加上上午的義工 interview 及同工祈禱會﹐工作超過十二小時，坐在工作桌前的時間卻少於5分鐘。

一天耗盡"腦"力﹐跟 Band B 練習時出現"hang 機"狀態。當我還在呆呆滯滯之時﹐竟然發現 the bass guitarist 脫鞋彈奏﹐輕鬆地享受這次練習似的。

I hope my「事奉」will not only be my「事業」... 甚至忘記好好享受~
脫鞋王子, you made my day! ^^ It's really my honor serving with you guys~

妳把我灌醉

「紅酒」早已列入外婆和母親「不可缺少的餸菜」內﹐她倆閒閒地一餐 causal dinner 都可以K.O.一支。這晚竟然給我一個 surprise﹐由平日一般 12% 酒精的紅酒﹐轉為 43% 的 Gin 酒 + Sprite!

是否借助酒精力量令談吐變得容易輕鬆? 實在不太清楚! 如果是真的... 這晚和母親的對話﹐大概可以歸功於 Dry Gin.

"So many times, I had chosen not to be with her. Too busy. Too tired. Don't feel like dealing with it...; ...You count the hours you could have spent with your mother. It's a lifetime in itself."
- For one more day

"It's such a shame to waste time. We always think we have so much of it."
- For one more day

考我吧!

完成了今晚的中期考試﹐即是說﹐這科「輔導初階」已經過了一半喇!

上了這一科接近兩個月﹐今晚踏進課室的時候﹐首次感受到"舊時"讀書的氣氛。人人都拿著 notes 在考試前作最後衝刺﹐這種情景似曾相識﹐卻又很陌生。

作為懶人的一族﹐我喜歡考試多於做功課。平日上課只要留心一點﹐就算不用功溫習﹐都不至零分吧! (Kids,不要不溫書!)

唉呀!「功課恐懼症」又來了! 中期考試過後﹐就是迎接兩份大 project 死線的時期! 喜歡上課﹐喜歡老師﹐就是不喜歡做功課! 甚麼搞﹖! Crazily Lazy Daisy 沒有改錯名字! O.o"

再不勤力點﹐老時又會點﹖

Remain the Same

下午又花了大部份的課堂時間跟老師聊天(about 3/4 lesson)!! ^^"
從成熟人身上總悟出許多人生哲理來!"Remain the same" 是近期提醒自己的topic~

黃昏時段有 Mr. Blad 提供的5D Mark II 作玩伴!! This is way too heavy for me tho~

同晚加映﹕智&姿 @ SuperGoo! O.o

加人在香港

因為BBG+ANT回港的一趟﹐我們這班加國舊團友﹐又有借口聚首一堂!!
這次還碰巧馮生馮太黃金週放假回港﹐真的熱鬧到不得了!
整晚各人都忙著互相 update 近況﹐走來走去... 吃過甚麼、喝過甚麼﹐實在沒有太多印象。這班「加人」每次走在一起﹐都有說不完的話題﹐感覺真的很「家人」。

意外地認識了 Carmen 的神學生男友安仔﹐他的蒙召竟 somehow related to my job nature. Thanks for telling and it was encouraging! It's extremly tough, but it'll be a blessing path!! 我會繼續努力架喇!

飯聚前的 YME 出隊﹐讓我更深體會甚麼叫《以愛還愛》。

耶穌就是要愛那些﹐人看來不可愛的﹔就是要走到人不願走到的地方! We never know how God works, but HE works amazingly. 謝謝前正生學員「迪」有血、有肉、有淚水的分享。

"How Great is YOUR love"!

溶掉人心的孩子

前天參加了一個一歲小朋友的生日派對﹐一個簡單而隆重、豪華又溫馨的派對!

晚飯中途播放 Ashton BB 成長的片段更是窩心!
配樂都特別感人~ 哈哈!!





抱著自己心愛的兒子﹐溶化了平日 cool cool 的爸爸樣子!! 這種化學作用﹐沒有任何東西可取締吧~

Thanks for the souveniers and everything!~

結婚的季節

I cannot believe my own eyes!!!

This is the skinny little shy guy I met in high school ?? →

帥! Shy no more! ^^"
Can't wait to see mr. & mrs. otto tang from L.A.!!





這個月共收到三張wedding invitations﹐

結婚的季節似乎又來了!

Fearful Heart

昨晚深夜自省(need to do so from time to time)﹐今回打斷埋陳生講章的預備。將近日所有混亂的片段及感覺重整並細說一番﹐終於捲出一條曙光來!
再一次確認自己的位置﹐make sure I'm still on HIS right track.

今早出隊崇拜中的信息﹐加倍堅固作晚為自己所定的。可以不怕夜、不怕遠、不怕等、不怕悶、不怕苦、甚至不怕死﹐但卻不能不怕上帝。

Life is about restoration I guess.

人若自潔、脫離卑賤的事、就必作貴重的器皿、成為聖潔、合乎主用、預備行各樣的善事。(提摩太後書2﹕21)

即興中秋

團圓不一定要預約! 哈哈!

竟然有幸與姿姿+智智即興地吃中秋晚餐﹐中秋節頓時快樂起來!
「即興」大概是老友的「專利」~ 好想引用威廉王子那句:「不如你唔好走啦! 」酒逢知己千杯少呢~ Quality friends, Quality time... ^^
(I can be the bean I used to be only when I'm with you.)
明早又出隊了!! Gotta miss 香港仔, heading to 大埔 again~ By the way, Daddy is leaving HK without meeting his daughter, 來去匆匆~~

《I'll Be Loving You》- 梁詠琪
I'll be loving you 准我一生陪伴你的路
世界縱有太多樣 變化假裝的模樣 心知你最值得欣賞
I'll be loving you 所有悲歡離合笑聲中
愛對愛錯到今日 對你感激難盡 I'll be loving you

Youth 不可怕

ACM 兒童詩班 @ 香港大會堂

兒詩的出隊比起成人的出隊 "大陣象" 十萬倍!! 他們總是有耗不盡的精力!

這晚呆在後台的時間很長﹐還造就了我和高組幾個小妹妹的傾談機會。首次跟這班初中妹妹近距離兼長時間相處﹐竟然好像相識十載一樣。我不單不用找話題﹐她們還滔滔不絕的向我講解校園生活﹐中學生原來不是太可怕!! 哈哈!

靜慶生辰

不用上班的日子﹐最愛躲(呆)在家中和繁市隔絕。
今天沒有躲在家﹐但仍選來一個節日氣氛不濃的地方﹐靜靜地跟國家慶生辰。

Are they arguing? Is she crying? ↓ ------------- All 洋人 has a coke! ↑

相片背後,或許有動人的故事。Anyhow, I don't exist in their universe.

奇怪﹐餐廳播著的都是那時候的歌曲﹕范曉萱的《Rain》﹔張學友的《吻別》...