It takes risk to trust, courage to expect.
I'm not good at both.
Ms. Chau kept repeating,
"Daisy, you gotta treat yourself better, love yourself more."
How i treat disappointment?!
I give up hoping. Thats what most of the people do, right?!
I tried, i try many times not giving up. But it turns into deeper disappointment each time.
How do I keep the faith? I wonder.
My wishful thinking vs. My expectation.
I wish for other's respect, wishing someone who would treasure my love, treasure me.
But those are just wishes, not realistic, far from expectations.
I gotta set realistic expectations. I supposed.
"Daisy, you treat people too much better than yourself. You are being too harsh on yourself."
How i feel about other's comment on me? (Both positive and negative)
I hate and afraid of being ignore or neglect. I feel upset and mad when I got rejected.
My self being is always low.
But a person's value isn't / shouldn't base on how people think. No!
He/She thinks you are a pig. You won't become a pig.
He/She thinks you are useless. Doesn't mean you are useless.
He/She thinks bananas are pink. Doesn't make banana pink.
Not by something a person did, not by something a person didn't do.
We have a value as a person, a equal value of each one.
Same as a hawker, same as a CEO, same as a prisoner.
I take praise as an encouragement instead of affirmation. I question about others' praises.
Not only outstanding performances should be praised!!
Completing a task, accomplish a goal, or achieve the deadline can be praised.
Not by the quality of it, but the effort you made.
That sure was a tough lesson for me today.
I question, I wonder, I lost, I worry, I fall down...
It might take a lot of time to change my mind set, to free myself, to accept myself which I used not to.
I gotta be determined to make it happens, to love myself.
If i don't feel good about myself, who will?
Warning:
「你啊！受傷別拍一拍心口，咬緊牙關說無事就繼續去拼！給自己一點時間療傷才行！不然，傷勢只會不知不覺越來越嚴重。」
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