Mess up

Work 0830

Lunch 1630

My body has no signal hungry

Its actually good to be busy these days

rest-less think-less 

Purpose of work

Purpose of eating

Purpose of life

X asked

"Why are you spending so much time flying so many hours from a comfortable city to somewhere has no clean water meet people nearly nobody cares"

I started to think and find the answer in my head

In some way at some point

I'm just some random useless tiny little person living on this earth waiting to go to heaven

Without HiS endless love and mercy and grace and acceptance and care and... i should died at least 10 times

I probably need to beg my life for joining the trip to Ghana

I'm not 偉大 like R says

In fact, I can only do very little

I have many limits like all others

Just one life

I only have one life to live

One life to give

Love like how HE loves

Give as if I have so much

Not to live it right

Live it as a life

Finally 

I know why I work so hard why I cry so hard why my heart breaks why I mess up

This is why

I can have nothing

But not without love